IN PAIN+HURT+BLUR+MENTAL

I dont even know where to start, my life biasa ada happy ada sedih.oh well as usual,today pada awalnya my happiest day ever tapi end with painful feeling which i dnt even know how to describe,define or explain.i felt blur,jog ku cancel,then minyak ketaku warning,di samping tu,im waiting for...which u guys jgn tah tanya tunggu apa.yg penting i wait for almost 2 hours in my car,bepaluh,blank and blur.probbly today my blank and blur day.well cana ah.i cant even make decision by my self.my brain stucked wif the situation.now im on the middle of no where,shower wif sweat and emo. Is it my own fault or wat, Huh...,seriously kalu ku ADA DUIT AWAL ANI, i'll go where ever i want to go,(pasal minyak panuh) tp now.how?! Waiting for my abg? Huh.. Waiting 4 hujan duit? Huh.. ...arrrgghh i dnt even know wat im talking about.yg penting im in deep pain.very very very very blur+pain.